Monday, October 27, 2008

Somewhere I belong


The more I search, the more I fear the meaning of truth.
I feel like I'm going crazy.
what the hell was that?
what the hell is my life?
what the hell are those links?

My hands hurts from writing. my mind hurts from thinking.
how long have I been writing?

The melody which is stained with blood, shall never be played.

my hand are dirtying the notes on the piano with black ink.
will I ever stop to play?



.... red... is a pretty color isn't it?



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lyrics du moment pour Ariri
Somewhere I Belong"

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I�m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I�ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I�ve held so long
(Erase all the pain till it�s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I�m close to something real
I wanna find something I�ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I�ve got nothing to say
I can�t believe I didn�t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it�s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
�Cause I can�t justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain/ hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today

[Repeat Chorus]

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I�m somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I�m somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Lemleck.

Dans la bibliothèque, il ne restait que Lemleck et moi. Je dois admettre qu'il est vraiment fort. Nous avons discuté, en fait, plutôt que j'ai écrit et lui me repondait.
Le son cassé qui sort de ma bouche me démoli peu a peu.


Je m'inquiete attrocement pour Cain, mais le fait qu'il est avec Fugen me rassure. Tout est de ma faute. Lemleck m'a proposé de changer de clan. Mais je ne peux pas. Cependant il y a quelquechose qui émane de lui qui me plait. Si ce n'était pas du fait qu'il detestait autant Cain, je l'apprécierais beaucoup. En fait depuis Julius, c'est le premier fighter que j'aurais le gout de me mettre en équipe avec. C'est le premier qui me donne une impression depuis Juju. Seulement ses propos aussi sensé soient-ils, je ne peux pas abandonner les autres. Surtout après ce que je viens de faire. J'ai deja hate que les autres reviennent, il y a certaines choses que je dois dire a Sai... ou écrire...